Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Feelings

Feelings

Who knew they could be so much trouble

We like the good ones, we cling to them

We want to be blanketed by them

To exist in an eternal state of bliss

But bliss is transitory

Bliss gives way to other feelings we like a lot less

Like anger, fear, anxiety, or depression

These feelings are sticky, we’d rather they visit and leave promptly

But they often loll around trying to force us to feel them

Goading and harassing us like belligerent hornets at a picnic

These negative feelings, the ones that make us uncomfortable, the ones that make us feel bad

These we try to avoid feeling

We disappear into our imaginations

We don’t put the book down

We binge watch till our eyelids twitch and our bodies lose their tone

We ply them with purchases

We send them down our gullets in a fit of gluttony

We swig them back with alcohol until we’re numb and stupid

We swallow pills and float off on psychedelic clouds

Forgetting that feelings are meant to be felt

They demand to be felt

There will be no real relief

No permanent means of escape

We

Are the trouble with feelings

We who are so afraid of the richness of human experience

We who see no redeeming value in suffering

We who prefer to be lulled and entertained

Over being challenged to grow

Rather than looking at feelings as something that need to be conquered

Or at the very least, tolerated

We might just try feeling them

And see if we survive

We might just try questioning them

And see if understanding their origin dulls their insistence

We may be surprised to find

That feelings are not our enemies

But our sentinels

Keeping watch over our often tumultuous, inner landscapes

Safeguarding peace

We would do well to listen

And question

And above all

Feel

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2 thoughts on “Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Feelings

  1. So true Polly! Thinking of you as you deal with the failing of another parent. Love your mom and find it hard to imagine dementia taking her beautiful mind. Went through it with my mom and Ray’s mom. Both kept their sense of humour which was truly a blessing.

    Marilyn Seutter Sent from my iPhone

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    1. Thanks, Marilyn. It’s hard to watch someone you love disappear incrementally. We appreciate your prayers. Thanks for reading. Your presence here means a lot to me. It was my privilege to live next door to you and to work with you and the ladies at Cornerstone. You and your husband will always be special to me. Grace and peace! xoxo

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