Hello, my friends!
I’ve never admitted this out loud, because I didn’t want to believe it when the doctor told me, but I have a mild form of bipolar disorder and yesterday, I read something that resonated with me so clearly. It’s about how I’m always wanting to run away from things–responsibility, relationships, feelings, home, life, etc.. I tell you this because I’ve recently run away from my account on Instagram again. I think this might be the 4th time. I have a love/loathe relationship with that app. Sometimes I’m so excited about the creativity on there and sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the whole business and it causes me anxiety. I usually make a jumbled mess of my account and come to hate the way it looks and deactivate it, like crumpling up a piece of paper and throwing it in the trash. When you deactivate your account on Instagram, you disappear but it looks like you’ve blocked all your followers. I’ve lost many followers this way. It’s not personal and has nothing to do with my followers. I’m essentially “cleaning my room”, something I have to do frequently at home, too, or it gets away on me. So, if you’re interested, I have a new Instagram address. Follow me again or don’t. There are no hard feelings on my part. One thing that’s been true over my years on Instagram is that I’ve made changes every time as to how I do things, set new rules I try to follow to help me navigate it in a healthier way. I always hope that this will be the time I stay in one place but maybe the starting over frequently is a foregone conclusion for me. I’m grateful for my family and friends who’re willing to stick with me and my weirdness because they know my heart. If you’re a former follower of mine, thanks so much for all the comments, likes, and follows. Your encouragement means so much to me and, if we’re not to meet again, I wish you a joy-filled life.
Polly 🙂
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God bless you for your transparency. It’s a beautiful thing to know our God makes all things new & beautiful!
Thanks, Maria. He’s done an amazing work in my life in the last 11 years. I give Him the glory! 🙂
Polly, This is Bonnie, don’t know if you remember me, but I was a former student of your father’s at NABC (now Taylor) and I’ve commented on your musings before. I’m giving you a virtual hug, because I also suffer from bi-polar, mine would be classified moderate to severe, I have been hospitalized to stabilize. Anyway, I will follow and wish you the best in this new account!! Bonnie Matwick 🙂
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Thanks for introducing yourself, Bonnie. I’ve had my brush with severe mental illness and plan to tell my story here someday. Thanks for being vulnerable with me. Hugging you back! Polly 🙂